nothing


a 7-letter nuance that has born the weight of the deep end 

its what i’ve ever gotten back 

i’ve regarded it to have the power of every permutation of the dictionary

yet its the equivalent of how much a deaf man has heard in his life

its how much youre supposed to feel when your whole body goes numb

its my reply to every “what happened”

and what every fibre in my lungs wants to say in the loudest decibel possible when someone looks at me and in a daze asks “all okay?”

its been a while and i’ve become best friends with it

its like one of those swiss military knives,

one for every situation you didnt see coming

i hope you never spend so much time with nothing that you begin to examine the intricacies of it

the interesting thing about it is

the more time you spend with it, that is exactly how much you get out of it

but i called it my best friend 

and i’d like to keep them close

so this is it,me

spilling nothing

delivering nothing

feeling nothing

honest efforts

by-

nothing